Saturday, January 14, 2012

I asked my husband to leave our home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! am i wrong!?

Ive been married for a very short period of time almost two years next month.My husband and I had a domestic dispute and it got way out of hand. I was left with a scar on my face from a belt buckle that was slung and I was hit in the face with it. I had to have stitches below my eye and the scar that was left under it is about 4 inches long. Okay I am a strong believer in God I truly am and our elders from our church came in and prayed w/us and we started counseling. I know some say how could you stay with him? Well I did because we have a newborn and 5 very other small children, we argue about the most trivial things and honestly I want my marriage. This happened in August. Now no violence has taken place since but here's the problem every time I need comfort about my scar and how Im feeling inside and out he gets very silent and stand offish and at the beginning he used to get anger. And this fight was all behind his MOTHER! well he keeps saying every time we argue and make up that he feels bad about my face and that he's going to comfort me. So he comes home last night and I say to him how was your day exc...so we are talking and he asked me what went on w/my day I told him I made an appointment for my face and its still painful. He sat there silently for a second, switched the subject and then asked where did you make the appointment and how much is it. So he switches the subject again and asks me what the matter and I say MY FACE! its painful still and he just sits there.So I left,came back and asked him a question and it was why cant you talk to me about my face,every time I NEED you to comfort me about it you are never there.This is like the 10th time now I needed comfort. That's not fare.So he says! what kind of comfort do you want, so Im like so you cant comfort me and he says no I don't think I can. I got livid and I asked him to leave then because this is unfair. I took you back because you said you were sorry and you felt bad and begged to come home, you missed your family exc...He has yet to come to me on his own and I feel like its a slap in the face that not only do you not comfort me unless its after a big blow up but you seem so unhumble and as you have no mercy! It was one thing to take you back but now you act as if you don't care. he says he does and after we argue about it he shows remorse but no time before. Was I wrong for asking him to leave. I feel like ish! like he doesn't care about what he did and at this point now im feeling resentful.I wasn't at first I truly forgave him. But it hurts and he says he just want to come home to peace not to deal with something everyday.he took his things i doubt he's coming back...or ever gonna call. No rude comments please! But he says he loves me and want to change. Im fed up with this and the constant reneging on his drinking because that's the underlining problem. He's an alcoholic, he was going to meetings but he stopped.

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